Growing in Discomfort
I'm someone who always likes to try a new adventure. I get bored by status quo and new projects and ideas are exciting to me. I look forward to mixing things up and seeing what happens.
Like a hermit crab, I am quick to shed the old, with my eye on something bigger and newer to take its place.
Luke 14: 28-30 says, Which of you, wishing to build a tower, does not first sit down and count the cost to see if he has the resources to complete it? Otherwise, if he lays the foundation and is unable to finish the work, everyone who sees it will ridicule him, saying, ‘This man could not finish what he started to build.’
In a life of faith, we are sometimes asked to leap; to take a step off the ledge not knowing how God will sustain and protect us. But we must first count the cost of that obedience. There are costs to living by faith- loss of relationships, loss of reputation, financial instability, to name a few.
Before coming to Belize, we literally spent years praying, researching and dreaming. We had counted the cost and come up with solutions. We had ideas for ways to contribute and looked at property for those projects. But even as we were excited about these potential projects, we increasingly felt that we needed to take a step back. In our enthusiasm, we were running ahead of God's leading.
So, what if God's adventure for me means shedding the old and living exposed for awhile? Not having the shiny new shell to slip into quite yet? Leaving one role and waiting for Him to reveal my next one? This is not comfortable. This is vulnerable. This will cause greater growth in me than immediately donning my new shell and luxuriating in my new digs.
We're here in Belize and I feel exposed. I don't have a ready-made job and life waiting for me here. Those comforts will come in time and until they do, I will be growing in the discomfort.