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  • Writer's pictureRenata Joseph


This week brought a pretty substantial disappointment. Last week's blog mentioned that we were in the process of buying a house. The day we were set to sign the papers, the sellers backed out. Potentially getting a house really helped us feel OK about going back into lock-down. But it was not to be.

As I've processed my reaction to this turn of events, I thought about the word disappointment. The prefix "dis-" means expressing negation, or reversal of an action or state. "Appointment" has two definitions. The first is an arrangement to meet someone at a particular time and place. The second: an act of appointing; assigning a job or position to someone.

I appreciate the imagery implied by the first definition: The negation or reversal of meeting someone at a particular time and place. Like being stood up for a date. You expected someone to show up for you and he flaked. Like a rejected single, I ask, "Was it something I did?" "Did I miss the signs?" "Is it worth putting myself out there and trying again?"

To be clear, in this analogy, the person who didn't show up when, where and how I expected, was God. I had sent Him notice of the meeting, told Him how much it meant to me and expected Him to honor the appointment. To my view, He did not.

Deuteronomy 31:6 says, "Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."

That same verse is quoted in the New Testament in Hebrews 13:5: "Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, 'Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.'"

Wow, both verses bring my situation into perspective. So, if God has promised to never leave me or forsake me, why was I disappointed when the house fell through? Did He miss an appointment or did I?

Maybe there's another appointment being made that I've overlooked. Maybe while I was discontented with our current circumstances, and trying to make things move along my own timeline, God was more concerned with a different type of appointment.

The second definition of appointment is an act of appointing; assigning a job or position to someone. I've been thinking, looking and praying for an assignment, a clear position here, and so far I've felt halted every step of the way. In this process He is refining and reforming me, preparing me for my future appointment.

Do I still want a house to settle into? Of course. But I choose to be strong and courageous. I believe that God is with us. I will once again learn to be content in the circumstances I find myself in. When the timing is right, He will make the appointment and I won't stand Him up.

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Aug 18, 2020

dis --> HISappointment! He's got the goods. Oh yes He does! Thinking of Him not stepping up to the podium to conduct His orchestra until the instrumentalists are fully ready. Getting closer each day. Take heart! You guys are actually way further along than we were when we stepped onto the water.

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